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NAPFA test. Managed 2 As, 2 Bs and a C. I just need another B or C in 2.4km run to get my gold. I must get my gold. And to those who want to comfort me, just do so by saying a prayer for my brother and my family. The best comfort I can get now is to see my family well. It is so ironic that I'm so chummy with my brother's friends and girlfriend now. Life just surprises.
Fly to the sky : Missing you
Even if I tell myself that right now, its not like before
Even if you forget me completely,
Even if I am just a person that just went by
Tonight is just one night
Just like before I lost you
My heart wants to find you again
Why is it lingering like this?
I cant accept myself without you
Tonight is just one night
Just like before I lost you
*Please listen to my heart just once
Everyday every night I am missing you
Even if you are not by my side,
Even if I cant see you now,
In my heart, you are always the same
My heart that wants you again,
Why is it lingering like this?
I cant actually realize that I dont have you
Tonight is just one night
Just like before I lost you
I dont expect you to come back again
My heart is always trapped inside of yours
Please listen to my heart just once (To me who cant see you)
Everyday everynight I am missing you
Even if you are not by my side
Even if I cant see you now,
My heart is always.. because Im loving you and missing you
To me, you are always the same
Translation by: gyool from Aheeyah
Quote of the day: "I believe that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them. "
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Abang, I will learn to let you go, because I love you too much. I know you came to visit me. Thank you. Be happy wherever you are. Don't forget me. We will meet again.
Melody told me she wanted to marry you, abang. That she would have converted to islam for you. You should be happy to know. I know you are. :)
I will be strong, I'll try to fulfill your dreams. To get on the Deans list, to own a Ferarri (sorry, but I cannot promise you I'll buy your dream bike), to send my sons to ACS(i) if I do have any, to donate to ACS(i) in your name. I want to do the things you always wanted but never got to do. And that's about all I can do for you. It's the 7th day. You're leaving... We'll meet again if God allows. You will always be missed and I will always sembahyang for you. I love you. And goodbye...
Silence (Jay Chou)
Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day
The sleeping cello
Quiet and so old
I think you've made yourself very clear
I know and I'm sure
You have no regrets
You say you'll also feel sad, that I don't believe
You and I, that's in the past
I hope he really loves you more than I do
Only then can I bring myself to leave
How clearly do you want me to put it
I really don't want to part
Why must I depend on a smile to tide me through?
I don't have the ability
To accept both you and him
Don't worry too much, I will continue to live well
You've already gone far away
And I will slowly walk away
Why do I still give in to you even when we are breaking up?
I really don't have the ability
Being silent is not easy
I will learn to give you up
Because I love you too much
Quote of the day: "But after this, I'm very sure I wanna give up anything to be with him."
-Melody
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I'll be more positive. I'm actually already quite positive lately, since this year. Maybe it was your influence or my friends. But I'm trying my best. I'll go running, I'll lose weight. I'm cutting down on my serials. Mum says she sees so much of you in Adlin. And where does that leave me? I've always been the odd one out. Abang, I must stay strong and make you proud of me. Just like Melody said. I never knew you found me beautiful, until Melody told me. Thank you.
Maybe you won't be able to read this. But who knows, really. I hope you're happy wherever you are and, don't forget me, and I hope you're not lonely. We miss you.
Fly to the sky : Goodbye
Don't talk, just leave me a smile and go.
Even if I don't hear the saddest words in the world, I know now.
I see that a time to put up a dream-like love as come to me as well.
I'd probably find out what pain is.
Always I am only yours.
Already you're the only thing living inside me.
We'll only be together until today but take this heart with you and go.
Good-Bye.
As if its nothing, you turn away first.
This loss I have to cope with by myself must be my share.
If I bury the precious memories your hands have given me deep into time, then it'd probably become little cloudy.
You've left and although I have to fill this empty seat with my tears
As much as we loved, I wish you that much happiness.
Good-Bye
I wasn't prepared for the separation that came to give me saddness.
Do you not know of me who's saying over and over again, don't go?
Always I am only yours.
Already you're the only thing living inside me.
We'll only be together until today but take this heart with you and go.
Good-Bye.
You've left and although I have to fill this empty seat with my tears
As much as we loved, I wish you that much happiness. Good-Bye
Lyrics from Aheeyah
Quote of the day: "Why are you so negative?!"
-Abang
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They left his body in the rain for 3 hours. Abang, I am so hurt that you had to die such a lonely death. But you know something? When people die in accidents, their body usually stink. Yours didn't. Kak Wanti joked that it was because you were so clean, bathing more than 5 times a day sometimes. But I know it was because you were good.
We all miss you dearly. I will never be able to call 'abang' anymore. I remember you calling Leslie Cheung a 'gaylord' and calling my chinese serials and korean dramas stupid. You know, I would have done anything, anything to save you from that accident. I can be poor all my life, fail all my tests, end up as a road sweeper, as long as you are still here.
Abang, I know you would have wanted to die handsome. Remember the scar you had on your leg? You keep complaining to me 'How? Not handsome already lah!'. Abang, you are very handsome. I know your spirit is very handsome. Very. The day before my birthday last year, you actually gave me a treat at Burger Kings. Do you know how happy I was? It was a first. You actually brought me shopping. I never expected it to be the first and last we went out together. Just the two of us.
We are all so proud of you. You would have been a somebody had you lived. You were going into SMU, had such a pretty girlfriend (whom I didn't believe was your girlfriend when you showed me her picture), ORD in 3 months...
Abang, please help mummy and daddy get through this difficult period. I know you would want all of us to stay happy. Help your girlfriend heal this wound. She's in touch with Auntie Bernice now. I'm also going to keep in touch with your girlfriend. When she said "Bye bye" while you were being carried out through the door, my heart sank.
You had a grand funeral. You would have been happy wouldn't you? I know you would have. The police respecting you and all. You are in the newspapers today. You would have loved all this attention. I know you would.
I SMSed you when I heard the news. I just hoped and prayed that they would not confirm it. That they would tell us 'it was another person'. I asked you to come home. I asked you to come home...
I'm sorry if I have ever made you unhappy or angry. I never told you 'I love you'. I do. And, I have no idea when was the last time we hugged. I didn't kiss your body one last time. I'm sorry. I did not want my last memory of you to be that of me kissing your cold body. I don't want. I don't want. Your face, your head... I could not bring myself to touch you. I really don't want this. Abang, I love you. Goodbye.
My brother was a funny man. He enjoyed bringing laughter into our lives. I'd like to share his humour with all of you. His blog : http://themojodojo.blogspot.com/
Quote of the day: "He was complaining that it was unfair. So I said to him 'You win some, you lose some'. And the next day, he lost."
-Dad on his last conversation with abang
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I wish I could have given you one more kiss, one more hug. Or simply just whisper into your ears "I love you" just one last time. I love you. I really do. I feel so lost without you. I hope you know that.
You've left and although I have to fill this empty seat with my tears
As much as we loved, I wish you that much happiness.
Good-Bye.
Quote of the day: "I think I'm going to like you."
-Hyun Woo, Love Story in Harvard
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As for Love Story in Harvard, only caught 2 episodes so far... It's good. I can't wait to watch more!
Basically, had cross-country yesterday. Walked most of the way, jogged a bit and ran towards the ending. It was fun. And... moving house because missdy's closing down. http://az.pinkinki.net is my new home! It's not exactly furnished yet so... :)
After these 2 lighthearted K-dramas, I need a sad one or more. By the way, Channel U's going to screen Sweet 18 so be sure to catch it! And Stairway to Heaven too! I love Channel U!
Quote of the day: "I'm sorry I made you love me first..."
-Hyuk Joon, Sweet 18
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