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I changed my handphone number so ask me for it! This is a late post, I changed it nearly a month ago. Just never felt the need to blog about it. I am now holding a Samsung E330C, a flip-phone! Holidays are here. I feel somewhat empty. Abang is no longer here to celebrate my birthday or the holidays. I miss him so much. I just want to cry.
Shin Seung Hun - The Second Separation
Now I can finally let you go
Long ago it was looked as separation but
Now I have to try hard just to bring up your face.
Its ok if Im not sorry because you would've already forgotten me
I know Im the only one that is like this..
Separating for the second time is the pain that I've only made alone
This time I will leave,
Just like how you left me first when we broke up
Even after we broke up I couldnt forget you, but this is as far as I will go
I hope if we meet accidently, you will just pass by and ignore me
Ignoring me will be such a easy thing for you to do
Please go far away, so that I wont be able to find you
If I see you, I would forget that we broke up and I might excitedly embrace you
This time I will leave,
Just like how you left me first when we broke up
Even after we broke up I couldnt forget you, but this is as far as I will go
I hope if we meet accidently, you will just pass by and ignore me
Pretending that you dont know me will be such a easy thing for you to do
I dont know you either
Translation by : eebyul; Aheeyah
Quote of the day: "I think I'm going crazy."
-Hyun Woo, Love Story in Harvard
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I learnt from the story that if God had said that he would give me a handsome, caring, smart, sweet and humorous brother for 15 years and then take him away, I would have made the deal. I used to say "I'd rather not have abang than to have him and lose him so early. Because then I won't be in pain." Yesterday, I realised my mum felt the same way. But I realise, without abang, what would I have become? His time with me was short but I've enjoyed all of the 14 years and 10 months being his sister. A joy to people, our family's pride, he never gave people trouble. And you know what, I am so proud and blessed to have him as my brother for even that short time.
To those who still have your loved ones around, remember to treasure them and always let them know how much they mean to you. Life is like a basketball match, you never know how many shots you're going to get. So never lose a chance to shoot.
And to those who have lost a loved one, keep the sweet memories in your heart. Treasure the time you both have spent together, no matter how short. They may have passed away but they are very much alive. In our memories and in our hearts.
Abang, I love you. Thank you for the times. I can't wait to meet you again and tell you this, just how much you mean to me. I really hope we will still be able to recognise and remember each other then.
Quote of the day: "I love you, even if these tears come. I love you, even if you leave me."
-I'm sorry I love you OST
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Results weren't as bad as expected. Managed at least a 55 and above for every subject. Except for A maths which I failed miserably. Oh well.
Packed my table. It's a bit neater but still, can be improved. Shall do more packing sometime soon. When I'm in the mood. Yes, I procrastinate.
Holidays are nearly here. :)
Quote of the day: You need to say goodbye the past to build a future.
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Exams are over! And I embarrassed myself in class yesterday. How stupid of me. I'd just like to apologise to all of you classmates. I did not mean it. And sorry Jesslyn. I hope I didn't ruin your presentation.
Mum's buying 9 tickets to Star Wars III. Watching it with my brother, his girlfriend and his colleagues. We're leaving an empty seat in the middle for him. I hope he'll be there.
Going to visit abang later. It's been a month. How time flies. I hope this means I get to meet my brother quicker than expected!
Fly To The Sky - Gravity
Even if you were to completely erase me
I'd still be somewhere in that heart of yours
Even if you're not aware of my body
I'd still go
No matter how far apart we may get
I will show you in my dreams
And in that way your warm smile will last with in me
Your gaze as you look at me,
I can't forget those moments whenever you made me smile
They orbit around you like stars
I miss you so much when you can't come near to me
You can't avoid the gravity or my existence
*CHORUS*
You close your eyes so you'll be my sky
I'm confined to the space in that sky
All my love stays in that space
You won't stop running through my head
If you get further away, if you erase me
If you forget everything
I'd miss you so much that I'd conjure up a spell to make you come to me
It seems like these feelings I have of wanting you
They won't go away at all
Always I intend my feelings to be like my promise to you
That's the place where I can love you
You can put my heart there
So then those feelings, please give me your heart
(Give your heart to me, it seems like you're leaving)
You close your eyes so you'll be my sky
No matter how much I try to expand my heart
All my love stays in that space
I remember you limitlessly, I love you
Translation from : http://www.warghalv.com
Quote of the day: "The night that you left, it was raining like this..."
-Kim Bum Soo's Like the Rain, Like Music
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Mothers' Day yesterday. Had a few of my brother's colleagues come for lunch. It was rather fun. I indirectly caused mum to cry though. Stupid me. Just had to show videos of my brother, didn't I?
Visited my brother's dog, Cezar. Azhar brought us there yesterday since he was on duty. Cezar is this really HUGE Dutch Shephard. Quiet dog. He looked so so sad. His current handler does not love him as much as my brother did. Cezar needs a bath and grooming! Stupid guy. Will whack him if I see him.
On the way back from the K9 dog unit, I smelled the flowers. My brother had come to visit Cezar. It was faint though. Not overpowering like my maid said.
Emaths paper 2 and Chemistry papers today. I survived. Chemistry was just unexpectedly tough. Emaths was quite okay.
I'm worried about my parents. Dad no longer wants to go to his meet-the-people sessions and mum is just really taking this bad. I don't know how much longer I can hold on.
Abang, I wish I had gone instead of you. At least you will know what to do.
Quote of the day: "I miss you so much when you can't come near to me..."
-Fly To The Sky's Gravity
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Yesterday, mum told me that she just could not believe my brother died. That God really chose the best for recruitment. It pains me to see my mum cry secretly in her room. I have no idea what to get her for Mother's Day.
We have to choose a grave for abang. Honestly, I have no idea what he would like.
Quote of the day: "There's someone I'm in love with... Although I can't be with her now...I'm still in love with her..."
- Shin Hyun Joon's character, KISS - Because I'm a girl music video
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