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Friday, July 22, 2005

I have just finished reading Harry Potter & the Half-Blood Prince. I am not as disappointed as I expected to be. I had heard a lot of spoilers, regrettably. I'm sure most people already know who has died... Anyway, I'm not going to mention names here.

The pain of seeing someone you love, you care about, murdered before your very eyes, yet being unable to do anything to stop it from happening. The hurt and disbelief at seeing your loved one lying on the floor, cold, lifeless... Even though it was just a story, just a book, just words. I could feel the pain. And I cried.

Today is the 100th day since my brother left. The pain, sadness and loneliness still lingers... The things he used to do to irritate me... Blasting music late into the night, poking his head into my room to see what I was up to, putting down my favourite stars, lecturing me on my obsession with Korean entertainment... These are the very things I miss about him.

Shopping, eating, swimming, talking, laughing, cycling... I wonder if I will ever get to do these with him again? Jogging, playing table tennis & tennis, playing in the arcade... Will we ever get to do that together? I wonder.

It hurts me to see my mum in so much pain. Pain which I could never heal, never stop. I wish I could help all of my loved ones with their problems. I really want to. But it seems that all I can do at the moment is lend a listening ear. Give me more time to heal, to hurt less. Till then, all I can say is I'm sorry.

Quote of the day: "I am not worried, Harry,"..."I am with you."
-Dumbledore, Harry Potter & the HBP

Amylia. is living the "M" style ! 3:46 PM
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Thursday, July 14, 2005

Dear abang,

I tried to draw a picture
The way you taught me to
But no picture could ever
Show my love for you

And when I awake at night
I always think of you
And I often wonder
If you thought of me too

Some people say you've gone
To a much better place
But I still can't help missing
That smile upon your face

I tried to write my love
In this little poem
But words can never express
The way I feel for you

I still miss you.

Quote of the day: "I'll search for you in my memory. That's enough. Because you gave me the strength to get over my loss. You gave it to me."
-Ken Hirai's hitomi wo tojite

Amylia. is living the "M" style ! 8:12 PM
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Saturday, July 09, 2005

Updated my 1-hour playlist. :) I must be so bored to come up with these "exactly 1:00:00 hour" playlists. But, it's good. It helps me to get re-acquainted with my older songs. :)

Anyway, I've found the translation of hitomi wo tojite by Ken Hirai! So here it is:

Ken Hirai
I close my eyes

every morning I awake
to your skin, cast off, lying next to me
that back, I once felt warmth from, cold.
stop with the wry smile
open the heavy curtains
the blinding morning light,
everyday I try to keep up with it
you showed me that day, your face in tears
the setting sun that shines on the tears
the warmth on my shoulder
everytime I wish you gone
my heart and body remember you.

Your love forever
I close my eyes and imagine you, that's enough.
even if the season leaves my heart behind.

I wonder if one day I'll no longer feel anything for you
I think I'd rather fall asleep with the pain I have now
eventhough the light we searched for,
wishing upon the starry sky we gazed at that night,
disappears in a the blink of an eye,
my heart and body shine on with you.

I wish forever
I close my eyes and imagine you. That's all I can do.
even if the world were to leave me behind.

Your love forever
I close my eyes and imagine you, that's enough.
even if the season leaves me behind, and tries to change it's color.
I'll search for you in my memory. That's enough.
Because you gave me the strength to get over my loss.
you gave it to me.

Nice meaningful lyrics. Now, I'm just searching for the music video. I've seen a bit of it and it looks nice. :)

Quote of the day: "You should be smiling like this... and lose all forgotten memories. That's the way you should live."
-Ji Eun Soo, Save Your Last Dance For Me

Amylia. is living the "M" style ! 11:52 AM
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Tuesday, July 05, 2005

Yes, Amylia's going to talk about Korean dramas again. This time, it's the K-drama I'm currently watching - Save Your Last Dance For Me. I'm on episode 12 and it is so good! The couple are finally reunited and there are currently many sweet, lovey-dovey scenes. I like. Haha!

So, here are the lyrics to one of the theme songs of the show. I love the song. Nice, meaningful lyrics!

Our Love Will Always Last (English Version)
Edward Chun

As we walk this land
Side by side, hand in hand
I know that some clouds may pass
But if we hold on tight
And love with all our might
Then the thorns in our life will never last

And the roads may sometimes be unpaved
You may think that our love cannot be saved
Though the world out there
May be cold to all we share
I have you, to take me through the night
And if we hold on tight
And stay true to all that's right
Then baby, our love will always last...

See the sunrise in the sky
Kiss the sunset as we lie
At night, I'll never leave your side
But I know someday
I'll be gone, and you'll be gray
Oh, darling, wish that I could heal your pain...

Though the world out there
May be cold to all we share
I have you, to take me through the night
And if we hold on tight
And stay true to all that's right
Then baby, our love will always last...

And if we hold on tight, stay true to all that's right
Then baby, our love will always last

Quote of the day: "There are those people who love only once in their lives. Maybe I am one of them."
-Ji Eun Soo, Save Your Last Dance For Me

Amylia. is living the "M" style ! 8:37 PM
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Friday, July 01, 2005

I've survived a week of school. 9 more weeks to go till I get a week's break! So, a new term, with a new timetable, new teachers and many other changes! Oh, and I got a new orthdontist too. He's cute, with thick eyebrows and nice hands. Mmmm. Haha!

I finally watched Initial D today and it was so good! I did not touch the popcorn or my handphone the moment the movie started! So good! I want to watch it again and again. After the movie, both Melody and I walked all the way from Lot 1 to my block. I make it sound far but it really isn't. At least not to me. :)

Well, I've been watching a lot of music videos and one Mandarin music video left an impression on me. It's Tong Hua by Guang Liang. I guess it's because the video is very "Korean" so to speak. Reminds me of some Korean drama. :P Here's my attempt at translating the song. Pardon the language. I tried my best but Mandarin's not my 2nd language. So, try to enjoy it! :D

Guang Liang - Tong Hua

I've forgotten how long
I've not heard
You telling me your favourite story
I've thought about it a long time
I'm beginning to fear
Did I make any mistakes?

You cry as you tell me
That fairytales are all lies
I can't possibly be your prince
Perhaps you wouldn't understand
From the moment you told me you loved me
In my sky, the stars are shining

I'm willing to be
The angel in your fairytales
I open my arms
Turn them into wings to protect you
You have to believe
Believe that we will be just like the fairytale
With a blissful and happy ending

Everything is our beautiful ending

Quote of the day: "Are you satisfied now? Your trash son is giving up his life to save your precious other son. He is dying for your other son!"
-Moo Hyuk, Mianhada, Saranghanda

Amylia. is living the "M" style ! 8:38 PM
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