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Seriously, you cannot date someone who cannot get along with your best friends (in this case, he just can't get along with anyone actually). It'll just crumble in the end. I know I'm not exactly qualified to give relationship advice. But "love" blinds. "Love" makes you deaf and dumb too. This so-called love... which isn't really love. That's infatuation, illusion. Love isn't like this. But you wouldn't care to listen to me anyway. The next time he makes you cry (which is what, every week?), please don't come to me. This was your choice. So handle it yourself.
Anyway, work has been... crazy. HAHA. So much politics going on and I'm caught in the middle. :x But I like most of my colleagues. They're really friendly people. Mostly. (: So work is bearable. Although standing for long hours does get tiring. But we can get free popcorn & drinks & nacho crumbs! HAHA. It's so difficult to earn money really.
And Mr Lee Min Woo my dear, please feed me kimbap too thank you. And I'd like a piggyback too. Oh oh, and sing and dance for me. HAHA. Sheesh. I wish I was studying in Korea. At least I'd have some chance of having Min Woo make an appearance in my school. Watching Shinhwa videos is very therapeautic. :D My love for Shinhwa (and especially Min Woo XD) just keeps growing everyday. I really can't wait for them to reunite! (: I. I can't express just how much I wish I could go for Shinhwa's 10th anniversary. :(
Quote of the day
Even if everything changes, you can talk, you can play, you can love,
Even if everybody leaves, it's okay, I will be by your side
Anyband - Talk Play Love
Anyway, been down with flu since Thursday and I'm still coughing. The weather's been pretty bad these few days. I could not swallow anything solid on Sunday! My throat hurt so much. Well I'm much better now anyway. (:
The last 2 episodes of Nonstop 5 got subbed! I love this sitcom!!! I cried so hard when the cast was saying their goodbyes. Oh dear. All the good shows always do this to me. Make it so hard for me to let go. HAHA. Well I'm happy with the ending at least. (: Min Woo, you're still the coolest, sweetest guy to me! Even if you ended up as the only guy without a girl in the end. XD
Work has, so far, been pretty good. It does get a bit tiring standing for 6 - 8 hours but that's okay. :D Which reminds me... I need to watch a movie! Stardust anyone? HAHA. Or even bee movie? Haven't watched a movie in ages.
MKMF drama is hilarious. Awards shows in Korea are pretty pointless now. At least for music. Disappointing. I'm proud of Min Woo for standing up for what he believed in and backing out last minute. And the fact that JYP supported his decision knowing it'll affect his comeback stage means something. It's not about not winning. It's about how the awards were given out. I feel bad for the artistes who won and are getting bashed. It's not their fault. Well, Shinhwa, whatever decisions you make, Shinhwa Changjo is always behind you. It's been 10 years mann. You don't need awards to prove yourselves. You make music for the passion, for the love, for your fans, NOT for awards. We know that. And we are so proud. (:
Quote of the day
"And then there are some wounds, some betrayals... that are so deep, so profound that there is no way to repair what was lost. And when that happens, there's nothing left to do but wait. "
Dr Christina Yang, Grey's Anatomy
Adz is right. I don't think enough before doing stuff for people sometimes. Even when I end up on the losing end. Even when it's at my expense.
But you know, I'm still going to be this way, do what I do. Because I still believe that kindness will be repaid by kindness... I still do. (:
Quote of the day
People are lonely from the moment they are born. They look like they belong with one another, but they're really alone.
Rex, Over The Rainbow
Tennis today... was depressing and embarrassing... for me. HAHAHA. OMG I suck! I need to practise more really. I guess it's hard to focus on playing a sport when your mind's just not there. Babo Mylia, just let go of all your sadness and enjoy your sessions, why can't you? :(
My heart feels really heavy. Why can't letting go of feelings be easier? It's taking so much of me and I'm just growing weak and breaking really. I don't want to think too much about other problems too at the moment.
I think I should have stuck to my previous decision and not change my mind. At least that would have been one load off my mind. It's just tiring and painful and frustrating. I thought there was a chance to improve things but maybe it's just impossible.
Quote of the day
The tenderness in the past has already been locked by time
Leaving only the sadness that doesn't go away
Jay Chou - Feng
That said, fandom really does bring people together. Getting to know each other because of a common love for a celebrity, you may think that's superficial friendship. But when you've gone through so much together (M project, folding cranes for Andy, writing postcards for Eric, preparing for SG Shinhwa concert)... It's different really. Celebrating birthdays together (the members' or our own), having gatherings for all sorts of reasons... I really feel that we are a 2nd family. Because we SMS each other when we feel sad or happy. We make it a point to catch up with each other everytime we meet, not just about Shinhwa. We want to know what's happening in each other's lives. We laugh and cry as one. We care. And I couldn't ask for more.
On an entirely different note, why do some words have to hurt so much? Is it so wrong to be nice? I wish I could get over stuff easily but even the tears aren't enough to wash away the pain. People aren't always what they seem. Love blinds. Apparently, Asian girls are likely to be so obsessed with their guys that they end up neglecting their friends and losing them. I'm not personally attacking anyone... It was something someone told me. And from experience, it is quite true isn't it. Or maybe it's just the fact that we're all still young and we just don't know how to handle relationships well. We learn from mistakes. (:
I wish I wasn't so weak. Why is it so hard to refuse, to say 'no'? NO. It shouldn't be that hard. Yet it is for me. In life, all the people you love will eventually hurt you, but it's up to you to decide who's worth the pain. (: I decided quite some time ago who will ALWAYS be worth the pain and they should know who they are. XD
Some things can never be the same again. And maybe that's best. There's just so many uncertainties in life. And sometimes one has to make difficult decisions. We don't always have a choice. But sometimes, having no choice may be the best choice. (:
HA^3 + SHCJ family... I LOVE YOU! :D
...and of course Dee, Mel, Ting, Nasri, Jon, May too! :D
This is a random rambling post you realise? XD
Quote of the day
"I wish he didn't hug me. Because it made me want to tell him that I'm a girl."
Eun Chan, Coffee Prince
We (Mel, Nasri, Jon & Mylia) had our first tennis training yesterday and it was really fun! Nasri got whacked on the head by Melissa when she was practising her swing. XD I can't wait for Tuesday's practice! ;D
Promotion results today, finally! I'm so happy for those who got promoted! :D Let's study hard for next year okay? :D Those who didn't... it's not the end okay. (:
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I think you've made your choice clear.
And I'm making my choice now.
I'm no longer willing to hold on to something non-existent.
I thought I'd feel sad but I actually feel really relieved.
You've disappointed me a time too many.
And I'm not willing to allow myself to be hurt anymore.
You said you hate to see me cry.
So all this time when you hurt me, were you closing your eyes?
You can never make up for the tears these past months.
Let's just move on.
Quote of the day
"An empty habit without substance. The feelings inside had disappeared long ago, with only its façade left intact and standing."
Yoo Ju, Coffee Prince