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Friday, December 28, 2007

Christmas was good. I think Christmas is just the season where people spread some love... and money & presents... XDDD It's nice really. Spent x'mas night at korean karaoke (noraebang) with my SHCJ girls; Cheryl, Ling & Shar where we went high and screamed and jumped around and sang so loudly I lost my voice momentarily. HAHAHA. But it was crazy fun! And we have decided that we're going to make this a monthly gathering! First Saturday of the month. SHCJ girls who love karaoke, mark your calendars now! :D OMG I can't wait till the next one~

Boxing day was spent with HA^3 at my place. :D Had a late lunch... (ahem ahem XD) and spent the rest of the time watching funny videos and laughing a lot. XD Being with my girls always make me feel happy! I wish I could spend everyday with them. HAHA. Adz is right. I am stuck with HA^3 for life so I must make sure that whoever dates me can get along just as well with them. I'm not going to choose bf > HA^3 because the feeling of getting dumped by a good friend over a guy really sucks. And it's NEVER worth it.

Yesterday, went to sentosa with some of the level 6 ushers! Mel & I came late so we didn't get to play. :( But we camwhored a lot, then had dinner at vivo and camwhored a bit more before leaving. HAHA. It was still fun anyway. XD

2008 is nearly here and I dread it. :x I sure hope it's going to be better than 2007. :( I still need to put up my heartchu cards & re-do my layouts. I need some inspiration. Bleh.

I miss you, I miss you, I miss you.
You'd know what to do.
You'd help me through this.
I'm crumbling inside.
And you're nowhere to be found.
I'm trying to live without you.
But it is just so hard.

Quote of the day
"I don't think you've ever loved anyone. That's why you don't know how it feels to lose someone. When someone dies, the world continues spinning... But there's one person less in the world..."
Yoo Jin, Winter Sonata

Amylia. is living the "M" style ! 3:44 PM

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Spazzing sessions are the love! XD Went over to Steff's today for a spazzing session. OMG. Big Bang got us so high we were literally fainting on each other in front of Steff's TV. ._. I think I like Big Bang again. HAHAHA. And can I just say that TIM is so freaking talented?! OMG drums & saxophone... and that voice that melts our hearts. And the fact that he's already so good-looking and has a smile which makes you feel breathless. What I wouldn't do to meet him just once in my life and have him sing to me. Oh gosh. :x I'm on fangirl mode. XD

Noraebang next week with the girls again. YAYNESS. :D

Min Woo's N19 concert. I wanna go so bad. :( And YG concert. And FTTS. T_T Nothing beats the feeling of attending a concert of your idol really. Unless it's backstage passes to the said concert. XD

I'd rant about some stuff here but it'd just be sinking to her level. HAHA. I'm so above all that shit. She can carry on her ways if that's what makes her happy and helps with her insecurities. I will not crumble. I have HA^3. I have SHCJ. I have my parents. I know I'm loved. (:

Okay I'm exhausted and all I feel like doing now is jump into bed and hope to dream of one of my hot korean dudes singing to me, playing the sax or drums or dancing some sexy dance for me... or all of the above. XD In a suit please. XD See you in my dreams Mr Lee Min Woo! :P

Quote of the day
I promised myself i would be fine without you but i cant help it
I take in liqour which I dont even know how to handle, trying to fill my empty heart
Big Bang - Lies

Amylia. is living the "M" style ! 11:01 PM

Sunday, December 16, 2007

It's time to stop working and get back to my academic work. After working for a month or so, I think I prefer studying. It's tiring standing for 6-9 hours with only a half-hour break in between. I can't wait till I end my work after next week! It'll mean no more chances of forking out money for shortage, no more annoying, rude customers, no more getting scolded for anything and everything under the sun. But that also means no more working with some of the nicest people I know! I'm going to miss my level 6 ushers! You guys are so awesome. Work hard! :D

PS I met Stuart today! HAHA. :P

I can't wait to see Shinhwa's 10th anniversary - 24th March 2008! It'll definitely be so awesome. I wish I can see it live. :x But well, no chance of that unless my mum strikes it rich so I can go there just for the weekend to see them. XD

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You know those days where you just wake up and miss someone so bad? I felt that way today. Sigh. Abang. I was eating alone at Burger King when I remembered that you gave me a treat for the first and last time at BK Suntec City. And I miss you so. How I wish you could pester me for free movie tickets and how I wish we could watch a movie together. We've never done so many things together... I want you back so bad you wouldn't know. If you can see us from where you are, I'm sure you know the situation... I really hope you're in a better place where there's no pain. Because I really love you, although I've never told you so. Dzarrin & Juli came last Wed and... I see so much of you in Dzarrin. Suddenly it felt like a part of you was there with us. You'd be pursuing your dreams too if you were here. So I have to be more focused and be more worthy of this life I'm living right? I'm trying, I am. But sometimes it's just so hard. :(

Quote of the day
You are the one that makes me sing
Nothing in the universe can change that
You're like a song on a constant playback
ANYBAND - Promise You

Amylia. is living the "M" style ! 11:29 PM
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Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Jun Suh : You're telling me to live without you?
How can you be so cruel?
How can I live without you?
How can I?
I can't.
I don't want to go through that kind of pain.
Can you live?
Eun Suh : But promise me anyway. For me.
I'm dying.
If you're dying too, you want to spend the rest of our time dying?

Yeah, the starting of my blog entry is a scene from a Korean drama. Autumn Tale. The first Korean drama I watched and still one of my most favourite drama! It is my favourite Korean tearjerker really. And I post this scene so that whenever I feel hopeless and lose faith that there's such a thing as love, I can read this and be reminded that someone, somewhere, loves another person this much. So love exists. Even if it's not for me. And I'll hang on to some hope that someday I'll find someone who loves me this much. (: I think living a short life isn't so bad when you have someone who loves you that deeply.

And I just want to say that... one-sided love is also love! Someone told me it wasn't. I'm rewatching Autumn Tale and am reminded of how much Tae Suk loves Eun Suh, eventhough she never loved him back the same way. Because sometimes, no matter how much you love someone, they can never love you back the same way. And although I root for Jun Suh all the way, I can't help but cry with Tae Suk as he struggles with his painful one-sided love. How he begged Eun Suh to let him cure her illness so that when she's well, he will leave her. How can that not be love? When really all that matters to him is that she's well and happy. Sometimes I think that one-sided love is stronger than mutual love.

Anyway, besides dramas, I've been watching this variety show called 1000 songs challenge where celebrities come on and sing. Every week, they insert 1000 songs into a database and the celebs pick a number and hope that they pick something they know how to sing. Because they don't get to see the lyrics. So it's quite hard. HAHA. I love it! I get to sing-along too, to familiar songs. :D It's fun really!~
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All I want for X'mas is... a Korean drama boyfriend. Lee Min Woo, eodiesseo? You're supposed to save me from a lonely x'mas remember? "If you're lonely this x'mas, give me a call!" Sigh. I miss you. Waking up to your voice every morning, seeing your face before I sleep... It's like you're a song on constant playback. And I don't want to stop. But really, all I want for X'mas... is to see you happy. You and the rest of the Shinhwa boys. Happy and healthy. Safe and sound. You guys keep me hanging on... when everything else turns out to be a lie. At least I know I have you, I have HA^3, I have my family and my 2nd family SHCJ. That's all I need.

Quote of the day
"I forgive you for your sins."
Jun Suh/Eun Suh, Autumn Tale

Amylia. is living the "M" style ! 2:45 PM